< THE WAY OF PASSION >

I know there's more to your life than I can ever
imagine. The nuances, the unexpected
twists... those lips that kiss yours wanting more
and more... not that you mind, of course. Darling,
slip on your helmet and prepare yourself for a new
day! There are secret lives to live, oysters to
savour... knowledge just waiting for your attention.

( silence )

The sun rises, your eyes open... there is summer
and heat and not enough water to drink. Are you
alone? Can you really work another day when your
mind is elsewhere? Shaving, showering, buttoning
up that beautiful shirt over warm beautiful skin.

This is the way of passion...
The way of seeing.
The playful eye!

I cannot imagine the world
without you in it...

< beautifuL synchronicity >

Is it that I see you,
that I miss you?

Is it that I missed a moment
to meet you -
to possibly know what
still eludes me?

You, who
mystifies and
captivates...

These secret lives,
Amour. There's no betrayal, no endings...
no misunderstandings or forced
reasoning...

You astonish me
wonderfully! You pack my
mind with possibility... my heart
with beautifuL synchronicity!

> > >

< NOW iS THE HOUR... >

bY vOyA

Pure in the spirit serene
is what happens to ourselves. — RiLKE


A dreamy ceiling-sky...
a restful silence floating in my mind...
MMM...
it's Spring at last!
Light bright...

slipping towards the sun.

The dreaminess
the warm skin...

An early morning
and suddenly
there you are...
Hair tied tight,
walking so fast >
So serious, mystical flower...

Just a glimpse of your face
the rush rush...
and then you're gone, again.

( siLence )

MMM...
There are memories you know...
of you and what happened...
The madness of that time...
The years ending in a moment,
and I can't help but realise we
gave up too soon >

that door you cLosed one morning
to force my disappearance...
as if that was even
possible...

Rage fear...
unfixed and out of control—
pushing inward in the end...

I wanted to stop needing what
I didn't have, and I wanted to stop
being who I wasn't anymore...

( pause )

To say No was to lose it all >
Why do you think I hesitated? Why do you think
I froze and waited, hoping I was wrong...

And then, in that chance moment
just days ago...
Seeing you
again, feeling how all that loss
just grows and grows >
time not diminishing it at all...

Seriously,
we gave up too soon...

( siLence )

A tottering universe...
How can this remain hidden for so long?

< DREAMiNG OF.... >

bY < vOyA >



I KNOW THE DREAM
YOU'RE DREAMiNG OF.
I KNOW THE WORD THAT
YOU LONG TO HEAR.— THE DOORS


Footsteps in the darkness...
the insomniac asleep at last.

And there she is, watching herself
in a dream conjured or maybe not...
laying so still in the misty air—
feeling so bright.
So calm.

And suddenly, inside that sleeping body,
she senses her Self
drifting away...

Free of skin...
from all those damn bones!

But there is no laughing,
not now. The serenity of it all just
catching her breath, her senses
in such delirious pangs of pleasure...

Seriously,
where did this dream come from?

And how can it be so real?

But in a moment...
fear swallows ecstasy
and there, just emerging for her to see—
the edge of the End all a shimmer...

Cool
cold
ultra-real.

And suddenly,
THE JOLT! The realisation that
this could be her death
waking her.


( siLence )


Stillness. Soft breath.
Thoughts racing racing....

Outside the darkness, the wind
keeping her every thought yearning for
siLence.

But she hears every moment in that room of hers....
the queasy motion of time
catching her now.

> > >

MMM....
her heart is beating
still. That skin of hers all warm and pale—
brain juices hot with fear.

And all she can do is wait for the sun,
for a witness to appear
with a heart unafraid of its own
existence.

> > >

< frieNd Woman.... You.... >

bY < vOyA >



THE TRUTH OF TWO
iN A SiNGLE BODY, A SiNGLE SOUL,
OH TOTAL BEiNG... — OCTAViO PAZ


I am sleeping....
I am looking for friend,
Woman....

She is gorgeous you know....

MMM....
I'm lost at university—
buildings and cement ground
an uncomfortable presence....
but I am fine. Really I am.
Meanings and feelings
forming everywhere.
Places where nobody goes visible to me
finally, and there is happiness here;
depths where moments so divine
fill my reality till it
brims full
with life....

( silence )

Ahhh, I'm drift-drifting,
and yes.... here you are at last....

Not Woman....
You.

Between us
no sadness, no awareness of time
or anything like that.
Just life
silken and so damn delicious....
Desirous.

I can feel
everything flutter....

> > >

( whispering )

What I can't understand
seems to lead me....
All that curiosity—
such a mysterious mix of
magic and melancholy—ANON....
drawing me closer
and closer

to Ecstasy.

> > >

And then....
we walk into classrooms,
down corridors—
searching, stunned by the
beauty of the place, its disarming
eroticism....

Words and feelings
charged with extra spice!

You are laughing
and I walk as you walk
your feet beneath mine—

And just look at these graceful steps we take!

Me helping our walk
just as you ask....

That smile of yours
just everything to me.

Each of us knowing
the friend Woman....
Absent still.

> > >

But then,

"She is found," you whisper....

And I just smile.

> > >

< DREAMiNG HEART.... >

bY < vOyA >



i HEAR NOTHiNG iN MY EAR
BUT YOUR VOiCE.
HEART HAS PLUNDERED MiND
OF iTS ELOQUENCE — RUMi


I still remember those nights.
The pulse of thought. The desire. The meaning
of it all echoed into some infinity I still don't understand.

Such a wiLd wiLd hypnosis....
a place where you can be destroyed by grief
or lifted so simply by the light of a heart's
murmur.

( whisperiNg )

I wonder where you are.
Still.

Be brave.
Be calm, I say.

I long for a reality
with you still in it.

Inside me
you never vanish.

Those secret words of ours
waking me completely.

> > >

( siLence )

MMM....

The sun is about to set.
Finally.
All those damn angles moving about
in the changing light. I'm carried there
with them. Thought-flashes just everywhere
it seems. Some Nowhere Place visible for just a moment—
and then,
gone again.

( siLence )

Seriously,
did we ever really meet?

I mean,
I always knew your face.
The way you felt to me. The warmth of being so close,
of being so intimately alive with you....

Is it bad to remember something
that maybe never even happened?

But it did....
didn't it?

> > >

MMM....
the sun is gone now. A snow-clouded sKy
fills me. The fear grips
so comfortably.

Love is too precious....
but you already know that.

In the silence of those quiet quiet nights
I hear that voice of yours
slowly coming into existence.

My lips wind-cracKed,
feet cold in the darkness....

Sleep now
I whisper.

Amour....
I am made for those with
eyes who see.

> > >

< weaviNg the raiNbow.... >

bY < vOyA >



In that soft siLent place
at night. There in stone
with the moon....

||| "GASPS, STEADFAST...." ||| |

bY < vOyA >



HUMAN WAS THE MUSIC,
NATURAL WAS THE STATIC...."
- JoHN UPDiKE


I'm scared to say these words....
so I'll whisper....

SoftLy softLy....

I have very bad dreams of
fucKing him and liking it....
theN killing him....
relishing the blood....
all that damn warm blood....
and then we would be waLking,
and he wouLd disappear....
and maybe then, I'd forget all about him,
wanderiNg alone at last
as though he never even existed....
the greatest of worLds just everywhere....
Patti's,
equatoriaL bliss....

"GASPS....
STEADFAST...."

Above and beyond....
every thought
unwindiNg....

( siLence )

MMM....
Sweetheart....
Please kiss me....

And stay awhiLe.
That damn full mooN
has me toNight....

As do you.

> > >

ps > HuNTER, you are missed.

< TiMe For A New High.... >

bY < vOyA >



"Fear evaporates the love
that evaporates fear."
- DAVId CARSoN

MMM....
there she is....
alone again
in that damn room of hers....

So still and lost-looKing....
eyes wandering about
her computeR screen....
that mind of hers still racing
after all those possibiLities....

loLa in the night....
saturated by the sound of rain....
searching for somethiNg
liKe love....

( whispers )

"It's oKay....
I know what's happening....
Trust me....
It's an experience you can't control.....

Real, reaL-tiMe....
after all these years....

By the way....
I do liKe him...."

> > >

loLa laughs....
types....
candle flames fLicker....
and suddenLy - IN HER MIND....
nothing but feeLing that
wet-eager-tongue
FeedingTheStarvingHedonist....

That blood-piNk softness of hers
just so damn ready now....

It's part of the human souL I'm sure....

me > What are you doing?
loLa > Cheap thrills Sweetheart....
me > It's never that for you....
loLa > MMM....
loLa > I just love not being bored....

> > >

"I feLt the heat of her want, it
cooKed my sKin and burned into my
souL." - BROM

MMM....
Just looK at them there....
WILD bodies in comfortabLe chaiRs
The gLow of their screens casting all that fLesh
in a very unattractive light....

loLa....
How lucKy you are to have such distance
from him....

( laughs )

I'm sorry....
but really....
looK at all that gorgeous seLf of yours....
smouLdery-greeN-eyed-creature....
perfect lip-sticKed-lips all a-quiver....

You're a straNge fucKing poetry....

> > >

Tonight....
it's the end of this existing universe....
your secret wish finally reaLized....

MMM....
TIME FOR A NEW HIGH....

( kisses loLa's lips ....
loLa sLumps bacK in ecstasy....)

( whispers )

MMM....
in your haNds....
in your dreaMs....

Just watch what happeNs
when you finally reaLize what it is you're
seeing....

> > >

ps > You know....
the survivaL of the fittest isn't always fair....
but it's not all randoM eitheR....

> > >